It is hard and you wont be able to feel.

praise to ALLAH for giving me chance to stay alive.
truth be told, I am afraid of my own feeling.
I think a lot of negative, never try to think positive.
too much time following my instinct.
I am afraid of losing life. afraid of everything too.
I put myself in sorrow and now I dont have any space to smile.
I couldnt smile like usual, like normal. like everyone too.
everyone are not worrying about their life. but i care it too much.
I easily think about what will happen next. death.
because of this, I become fragile. I dont deserve happiness.
I dont deserve happiness.
I hate this feeling.
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