rainbow, please come again

she's white skinned.
I am tanned one.
she's cool in dress
I'm just happy with the pants
look how you love her.
look how you treat her.
lovely.
look how you love me.
look how you treat me.
ugly.
question you always
"why dont you love me."
I don't know you said.
and know you left me behind.
with no pride for me to show off.
I know you are happy and I am crying.
having grey sky morning each day.
would make me feel i am worse
would you mind to feel the same?
i know you dont want.
where did you put me?
In a trash or in a space.
I want myself to be in a space.
But I cannot.
because I'm not the one that you have been missing the most.
I am upset.
I just want rainbow to come after the rain.
If I were given a chance.